Mixed Emotions

Last night was 'Meet The Teacher' at Thomas' school. I'm so excited for him. He is starting on a new adventure and he can't wait. He knows that school starts on Tuesday and he is so excited. He told me today that he can't wait to make new friends. I am so proud of him. Now I need to work on my feelings. I'm excited for him, but a small part of me wants to say no you can't go to school. I know that it is part of life and growing up, but I'm not ready. I thought that I was but after last night I'm not sure. Almost every time I opened my mouth to talk to the teacher my eyes got all teary. I hope that I can handle Tuesday with grace and dignity. I have been praying every night that God will give me the strength to handle this. I have things planed to keep my mind off of Thomas being at school. Tuesday I am going to drive for the Susan G. Kolman foundation. Wednesday I am going to keep one of my friends kids and the rest of the week I am going to hang out with one of my other friends. God bless for friends like mine. Always there when I need them. You know who you are and a great big THANK YOU to all that you have done for me. God bless you! I love you.

Lord - Thank you for all that you have given me. Please be with me next week while Thomas is in school and give me the strength to handle it. Thank you for my friends and what they do for me. Please bless them in all that they do. Amen.